| I've always struggled with insecurities. Satan knows about them and loves to use them to his advantage when I am vulnerable but, of course, God is smarter than Satan and I combined. I've been hit with a wave of them lately. Feeling as if nothing I do is right. If I choose one way, I find out later I should've chosen the other. The most awful part is when I open my mouth and blab (especially in a group of friends) and later, I realize what I said and how it sounded. I usually spend many days with the familiar black cloud of regret hanging in the back of my foggy brain. I don't sleep well and I wake up realizing the nightmare I just had, REALLY HAPPENED. My insecurities and Satan have been a twosome for too long. God has been stealthily working a surprise attack on the twosome and the Holy Spirit has been doing His thing of CONVICTing. This morning I forced myself to talk with God about all this and He and I agreed that I need to strive to be selfless. Oh, and the most important thing is to obey Him when He asks me to do something. That is the best choice. Therefore, today I'm buying a pie and taking it over to my neighbor's house. |
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| I'm joining xanga because my niece is on and my friend Susan, then I found links to some other church member's xanga sites. It's kind of fun to see what everyone is reading, listening to and fun way to see what's going on. I've just begun reading The Scarlet Pimpernel. I'm in a hurry to get this first blog done - sorry, not much time.
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